Just a thought…

So I woke up this morning with this sort of renewed energy that I honestly felt was lacking for a while now. I actually managed to wake up feeling happy, there was no underlying anxiety towards what the day would bring.

I got up with this positive energy and my body moving like ten steps ahead of my sleep clogged brain, it was almost like I was ready to get on with the day without fully realising it yet. The thing is because I’ve felt so ‘meh’ and yes that is the word I’m so sophisticatedly using to describe how I’ve been feeling the past week or so. I think all the years of education has come in handy don’t you? So yeah having felt like that for the past few weeks had me literally bounce full of joy knowing I felt positive for once, I knew I wanted to make the most of it, not knowing how long it would last.

I don’t know about any of you guys, but I’m very much of a ‘Heart worn on sleeve’person, my emotions change so quickly, I swear the smallest things can affect my mood. I’ve learnt to adapt to my swiftly changing moods and now find myself making the most out of my positive, happy and ‘Kick Ass’ mood whenever it arises.

Anyway the long introduction out of the way the point of this post was just to say, that I’m sick of the feeling you get when you feel like something is missing. Only our own inner self knows exactly what we can handle and can’t, what our full potential is and isn’t and profoundly what makes us happy and what doesn’t.

So the last few weeks I’ve felt like something is missing, something is lacking from my everyday life, I think deep down I know what it was, but I keep coming up with excuses and just don’t let myself think too much about it. I know that once I find out what exactly is bugging me, I’ll want to do something about it and therein lays the challenge for me. Once you’ve established what is missing or what it is you require, you then have to incorporate that or find a way to change whatever needs to be changed and I mean that requires effort right? Any sort of change is difficult, whether it’s a good or bad.

Thing is though you can only go so many days feeling like crap and knowing things are not right, it doesn’t just affect your mind but also your physical well being. I’m so glad I woke up this way, and I’m going to try and be a little more positive and actually try and figure out, what exactly is making me feel as I so eloquently put it earlier ‘meh’.

I think sometimes just taking some time out and actually allowing myself to breathe and be in the moment without constantly thinking that I’m wasting my time or that I could be doing something more productive with my time. At the end of the day the most useful thing you can ever do for yourself is allow yourself some down time. Time just for you without feeling like you’re wasting it or that you haven’t earned it.

If something requires change, just do it! At the end of the day when you’re too comfortable with something, that will only make it harder to step outside that comfort zone and do whatever it is that you are wanting, but then again doesn’t’t’t that always lead to the best moments?

Love

Sophia xx

 

 

 

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OUT OF HIDING

So this is my first post in a very long time. It’s been a few years actually since I’ve stopped writing, this blog used to be solely fashion based but have now decided to turn it into a bit of an ‘All rounder’.

I want to be able to talk about everything that matters to me, whether that be my daily mood changes, the new meditation techniques I think are amazing or even which book I think will be life changing.

I thought I would start by informing you of where I have been the past few years and what this platform will now mean to me. The first couple of posts will definitely be more mental health related, going into detail about my own personal experiences and gradually take it from there and go wherever the road takes me.

Let me fill you in on what’s been going on, we’ll start at the beginning shall we? A very good place to start (Whoever gets this quote, I’m totally high fiving you right now). Get your kettles boiled people and your teas brewed, it’s going to be a long one.

I stopped writing posts and stopped the YouTube channel I had back in 2015 and around that time I was living in London and working in fashion retail/PR and marketing. I thought I was living the life, living with two of my friends in our own flat and had a cool job. I was young and single and happy. I was ready for a great time.

Thing is I didn’t realise that all these things I thought were supposed to make me happy were actually going to be the things that finally pushed me of my so called wagon full of stars and unicorns and lead me to one of the most significant times in my life.

Depression.

I realised after a good 6 months that this ‘London life’ I had dubbed is not the life I wanted. I wasn’t happy at work; I was going from to job to job. In one year alone I think I had about four different jobs. I couldn’t cope with the anxiety and panic attacks so I would jump from job to job thinking that it was the job that was the issue when in actual fact the issues came from deep inside myself.

Around April 2016 I had my first ever panic attack, I had this sudden realisation that I wasn’t happy, that everything I was living and feeling was a lie. This was not me. Since that realisation dawned on me, every day after that felt like a huge struggle. I was suffering every day and normal day-to-day tasks seemed almost impossible to do.

I decided to go and do something I never thought I would do, Something I once used to make fun of and disregard as being useless and a money making scheme.

I decided to go and see a counsellor, now believe me, this was a huge thing for me, I think it took me at least two weeks to gather the courage to simply send the counsellor an enquiry email. I thought to myself if I go ahead and see a counsellor then everything becomes real. I wasn’t sure I was ready for that.

But them my anxiety grew, I was always down, I could never sleep, I bit the bullet and went to see this counsellor. Now let me tell you, this was one of the best decisions I’ve ever made, this one decision started me on my ‘Self Discovery’ path.

We had a relatively short time with each other, only 8 sessions, those 8 sessions however I learnt a lot about myself. But like many of us do, I thought to myself ‘oh look I’ve learnt a lot and now I can apply this and therefore do not need to continue seeing this woman’.

Couple of months down the line, shit hit the fan again, we found out that the flat we were renting was getting taken down and rebuilt as a home, meaning we couldn’t extend the lease and therefore would have to relocate.

Thing is my friends didn’t want to stay in London and so I was left with a decision of whether to move out and live alone in London, which would be extremely expensive or whether I would have to find others to live with.

I came to no decision and decided I would live with family close by until I figure it out. We left the flat and we left London. The whole thing left me feeling sad, angry and lost, so I thought ‘What is it I need to get out of this funk?’ I decided that going back home to Preston for a few weeks and being around friends and family would be good for me. To be able to reconnect with myself again and decide how I would move forward.

October 2015 I’m back in Preston. I’m home. Literally the next day I’m in my old bedroom, which has been empty since I moved out.

I’m sat on my bed with my laptop and I’m browsing and I come across an old friends profile, this friend of mine had decided that she was going to go travelling straight after Uni, she still is travelling all over the world.

I was looking at her pictures and so envious from all the posts on the new places she’s visiting along side equally amazing pictures. I sat there thinking, look at all these amazing things she is doing and experiencing and now look at me? Stuck here in my old room back to square one with my life packed in boxes and having no clue as to what the hell I want to do with my life.

So there sat in my old room with tears running down my face and looking through these posts and pictures, I had my first ever full-blown panic attack.

I couldn’t breathe; I was shaking and struggling to contain the tears. I was freaking the hell out. I was vaguely aware something was wrong but I couldn’t get myself under control.

I rationalised in my head ‘hey lets try and go downstairs and be around people’. I couldn’t do that however and instead went and sat along in a room by myself and rocked myself back and forth trying to figure out what was going on.

Then all of a sudden I heard myself saying ‘I don’t want to be alive, I want to die’. Now that thought freaked me the hell out, as I’m sure any sane person would!

I grabbed my phone and rang my uncle who came straight from work and heard me saying these things and probably others that made no sense. He decided to take me to his house; there I was sat with my aunty who instantly realised what was wrong. My aunty also has a history of depression and could see the tell tale signs that were clearly non-existent to me.

So there we go. That was the day that changed my life. I finally out loud heard the word depression used in a sentence that was directed at me. I finally figured out that I’ve been struggling for months.

I just couldn’t accept what was going on I didn’t want to be a person that has something ‘wrong’ with her. I wanted to be a normal woman.

Next day, after a lot of persuasion from my aunt, I went to the doctor, shared my experience and basically got told I had depression, now even that gave me a mini panic attack, hearing the fact that its all true and I am depressed, from someone who is licensed in the medical field is scary. That just meant one thing, this is all real and there is no way of running from it now. So I was then put on anti- depressants and assigned to a mental health support team and put on the waiting list for counselling. There began the most important journey of my life (So far).

By the way, a little disclaimer, what happened in London was not the actual reason behind the depression. That was just an experience that tipped me over the edge, my depression stemmed from events that occurred years back almost into my early teens. I know everyone has different sources of where their depression comes from and I am not belittling anyone’s experience of mental health. We are all different and so are our experiences and those experiences are what makes each of us unique.

So there we go folks that Is a wee introduction on what the hell’s been going and how I came from being this naïve young woman living in London to all of a sudden being a shell of my former self.

I am in a much better place now, almost on the point of wanting to say I don’t have depression anymore. But I know that’s not how it works and its something I will always have. The difference is now I’m in control of it, rather than it controlling me.

Over the next few posts I want to be able to explain in more detail of all the stages of depression I went through, my experiences and so on. I hope this is something I can share, I so believe in people wanting to share their experiences. That is the one thing that kept me going, knowing that I am not alone in this and many others have also been through the worst time and came fighting back.

This has been a slightly morbid post, but it is something that had to be said. Hopefully all future posts will have a more positive feel 🙂

Thanks for reading,

Sophia xx

 

Eternity

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Considering we live in one of the most weather challenged countries in the world, it’s always a nice surprise when finally we are graced with a few weeks of the summer sun.

The trends this summer aren’t as daring as the past few summers, now that the designers have caught up on the reality behind the British summer, and how abruptly our weather can change during the day. Go out looking like a Greek goddess, come back looking like a windswept, haggard nightmare!

Not saying this summer, its still not about the strappy dresses, denim shorts and kimonos, because it is, however it’s supplied with a good dosage of lightweight outerwear, to help aid us during the day.

During the day I’m all for denim shorts and strappy tops, but in the evening with the cool breeze and the fading sun, I prefer something a little warmer. Pairing these printed trousers alongside a simple print t-shirt and brocade like lightweight jacket, leaves me feeling cool enough for the warm evening.

 

TROUSERS – H&M  TSHIRT-PRIMARK  BROCADE JACKET-PRIMARK SHOES-BOOHOO SUNGLASSES-PRIMARK WATCH-MISS SELFRIGE RINGS-TOPSHOP/H&M/PRIMARK

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The Hourglass

Hi ladies! How are you all this Monday morning? How was the weekend?? I didn’t get up to much this weekend, I was feeling well at all this weekend and it doesn’t exactly help with it being absolutely freezing! I can’t believe it snowed in areas, I am so glad it didn’t snow where I was either! Anyway so Il be continuing with the ‘different body shape’s’ and today’s post will be looking at the classic hourglass shape.

The classic hourglass features the in and out curves, the bust being rounder and fuller, slightly wider shoulders equalling out to the slightly wider, full hips.

The hour glass is one of the most desired figures, ever since the Elizabethan times where women would wear corsets and such to define the waist and produce curves leading to some of the sexiest women in the world such as Marilyn Monroe, inevitably famous for her luscious curves. Now the hourglass doesn’t hold quite the same power it used to, therefore making it harder to find clothes – but fear not where there’s a will there’s a way! 😉

Now here are a few key basic tips to dress the hourglass figure:

Ok so there you have some of the basic tips for dressing the hourglass; now below I’ve selected a few items from the high street which I think will certainly work well on this figure, resulting in only the best look.

Topshop

Dresses such as this one work well all round, its sleeveless which instantly narrows the wider shoulders creating an illusion of small shoulders. The waist detail creates an invisible belt and ideal waist line. Finally the loose material gently skims over the hips and lets the dress fall just above the knees, showing off the legs.

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This lace dress is also another favoutite for the hourglass, the 3/4 lace sleeves cling to the arms and show off the slim arms and wrists. The deep vneck shows of the chest and bigger bust. The colour contrast falls just on the waist line again creating an instant illusion and if that wasnt enough the belt provides extra ooomph! TIP: To layer dresses such as these you could easily pair up with a fitted blazer or jacket.

Miss Selfridge

Now for those special occasions this type of dress is a definate statement piece. This will instantly leave you looking fabulous without any use of accessories! The low scoop neck will gently sit on the fuller  bust showing off the cleavage, the black straps creating the subtle illusion of smaller shoulders. The material is clingy yet loose enough to flow, it fits snugly around the waist nd falls around the hips creating the perfect outline. The black belt provides extra defined waist.

Miss Selfridge

 This lace dress is also another favourite for the hourglass, the 3/4 lace sleeves cling to the arms and show off the slim arms and wrists. The deep V-neck shows of the chest and bigger bust. The colour contrast falls just on the waist line again creating an instant illusion and if that wasn’t enough the belt provides extra oomph! TIP: To layer dresses such as these you could easily pair up with a fitted blazer or jacket.

High waisted shorts are a definite must! Some shorts add extra volume to the hips which is something hourglasses should stay away from, it will only make you look bigger! We need to look for tailored/structured shorts and a gentler fabric such as linen, silk or light cotton. These beauties sit perfectly on the waist and with the fabric being light with the addition of pleats the material falls just on the hips. Bolder colours are always better try and avoid big patterns if you can as these will only make you look bigger!

River Island

We’ve covered dresses and skirts so let’s move on to shirts, tailored shirt are what we need to go for. Anything monochrome is perfect as it will instantly create illusions in all the right places such as this black lined blouse. The black collar creates instant eye impact. These can be great for wearing on top of leggings/jeans/trousers as well as being tucked into skirts or even shorts to create a less formal look.

River Island

Outerwear such as this long kimono type blazer is great for hourglasses, when the fabric is loose and flowing so it can skim over the hips. This long v cut shows of f the bust and chest area with the 3/4 sleeves showing off again the slim arms and wrists. Finally being able to add a wide black belt around the waist just to pull it all in and define the waist, whilst the rest of the fabric falls just below the hips. Pair with black jeans or dark blue as they will create the illusion of slimmer legs. Balancing out the overall look.

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Slightly similar to the above blazer, this Mac coat has its V-neck collar with slight ruffle detail accentuating the bust area; the double breasted buttons create the small defined waist. The belt also allows this to be more accentuated. Whilst the rest of the fabric with includes subtle pleats skim the hip and fall just above the knee.  A stone colure Mac such as this allows the use of more colourful jewellery.

 Finally with hourglasses we can pretty much pull of high heels as well as flats. High heels are perfect for some of the dresses seen above or for those formal outfits. Whereas flats are something that we can wear with outfits including tailored shorts.

Below are some hourglass shaped celebrities, to give you an idea of how they dress for their shape:

One of the most famous celebrities known for her classic hourglass figure, Kim Kardashian really knows how to dress for her shape and create an overall flattering look every day. Here she’s seen with the A-Line skirt which sits on the waist and skims just over the hips with the addition of wide pleats, instantly making her look smaller. The nude coloured top creates a contrast to the skirt and the neckline is low enough to flatter the larger bust.

Another two looks for another celebrity famous for her hourglass figure, Jennifer Lopez shows of two outfits, both with the use of belts to define the waist. The blue dress is loose enough to flow over the hips whereas the ivory is subtly clinging to the curves.

I’m sure we all know her as ‘Ugly Betty’ but America Ferrara is a lot curvier than your average; she uses this subtle black dress which neatly clings to her figure. The use of the wide belt to pull in the waist creates a defined silhouette.

Ahhhh here we have Rihanna, who doesn’t love Rihanna! She can definitely work any outfit really knows how to flatter her figure! This khaki skirt sits just above the waist and flows over the hips and thighs just above the knee. The contrast white top with a low scoop neck shows of the chest and creates the illusion of smaller shoulders.

I guess the hourglass figure runs in the family! Kourtney Kardashian is spotted with a printed dress with the v-neck detail, sleeves which fall just of the shoulders and the defined waist detail and finally the flowing fabric which skims the hips and falls just above the knee showing off the slim pins!

Here are the top 5 Tips to dress the hourglass shape:

1. Always look for v-neck/scalloped neck dresses/shirts/blazers

2. Bolder colours are definitely our friends!

3. Loose flowing fabric is best

4. A-Line skirts and tailored shorts are the key

5. High waisted trousers/skirts and 3/4 sleeves are the way to go.

….and here are the top 5 tips to avoid:

1. Don’t wear round neck tops/dresses or jumpers.

2. Avoid all over prints

3. Avoid big baggy jumpers/tops

4. Wear dresses that cling to you too much!

5. Don’t wear too many layers; it will only bulk you up!

Well that’s all for now ladies, I hope that helped for all those of you with the hourglass shaped figures. Remember to love your figure no matter what shape you are 😉 I will soon be looking at the pear shaped figure. Have a lovely day!

Much Love

S.xx


These boots are made for walking…

Hi girlies, ok so now that winter has officially crept up, we all need to wrap ourselves up and dress smartly even though that rarely happens as we all still want to look good and not frumpy, this post will look at some winter perfect boots a perfect accompaniment for your winter wardrobe.

I  used to have these AMAZING boots from Faith, oh so many years ago and they have now withered away 😦 they were slightly torn but yet I couldn’t part with them and allowed myself to look a little stupid whilst wearing them with obvious tears but I loved them too much! They went with absolutely everything! However the time has come for me to move on and here is a selection of boots I think would be great for the harsh season, keeping you lovely ladies on trend as well as being totally comfortable.

£ 95.00 – These beauties are from Topshop, I love the colour blocking on these riding boots, these flat leather calf length boots are perfect for the winter season, they are comfortable, bang on trend and they look great with anything, from leggings to tights and dresses to jeans. Make sure to have a pair of these in your wardrobe! ❤ Wear with blue/indigo jeans or grey knitted tights for best effect! ❤

£65.00 – For those of you who are looking to wear a bit of both, then these Chelsea brown ankle boots are perfect for you, these boots are also in trend and can again be work with everything, these babies are not just perfect for winter but for all seasons, easy to put on with any outfit throughout the whole year, definitely worth the money ladies. ❤ Wear with black/blue jeans or leathers for best effect ❤

£75.00 – These calf length brown chunky knit boots are definitely worth having if you want to make a statement or just stand out from the crowd or if you’re a lover of those unique purchases. These boots are pairing two of the most popular trends appearing every winter together to create this wonder piece. Great for winter, guaranteed to keep your feet and legs warm! ❤ Wear with blue/black jeans/leggings for best effect ❤

£37.99 – These totally caught my eye! These rubber boots are not something you see every day and are definitely worth buying, the cheapest out of the boots shown here, these are unbelievably comfortable and in all honesty go with everything! Ok so I was after high leg boots myself but also bought these too as they go with everything and can even use them for spring and summer. ❤ Wear with any jeans for best effect ❤

Here are a few celebrities spotted wearing their favourite boots this season, to help you choose yours…

I hope the post was informative and helped you choose your perfect winter boots! Stay tuned for further posts on knits and coats as well beauty and hair trends 🙂

Much Love

S.xxx